Yeah, with the past few months being an absolute golden age for me and video content on YouTube, I’ve not spent as much time here, on Xadara, as this site deserves. I mean, we’re coming up on the 18th anniversary of this sites existence in its original form — the central place for my self expression online. A place where I feel comfortable just putting thought to paper.. well, digital paper.. that is to say, typing ideas into a web page which stores them in a database. Eh, it’s something, right?
Really though, I do care deeply for this nearly two decade long project, and know the past 5 years have been far from ideal for content here, but things happen. Life has a way of throwing constant curve balls and sometimes you can’t always hit them, ya know?
To be honest, I really do need to cut back on the live streams on YouTube, but they have been quite a bit of fun to host and spend time with some like minded people. However, the central focus being basically the same thing over and over has gotten a bit old — not to say I don’t want to continue following a certain “Lol Cow” but I do want to diversify my YouTube presence into much the same kind of broad scope as my written works here. Still, that’s not to neglect this space any more than I already have.
Indeed, I miss writing regularly. I miss being able to take a bit of time with my words here, edit things as I need to, and, if I discover a mistake later, I can always go back and fix things — not the same when one does everything in video form. Once it’s published that’s pretty much it.
Also, there’s the sheer exhaustion of doing videos that are always at least an hour or more long every day. Goddamn is it fun, but it’s so tiring, especially after a day at work. Starting what amounts to a second job after finishing a day at a repetitively physically demanding day job leaves me not at an optimal state for my streams, but hey, my audience stil shows up every time I go live supporting me, having fun, and just all around being cool people. That still makes it worth it to do near daily streams and / or videos.
Still, I really do need to make time for myself, and for my other hobbies and interests. Maybe I’ll do that here in a few days. At the very least I’m going to plan out some written pieces so I can get this website back to where it should be. From there, maybe expand these ideas, and previous entries, into videos, for what value they may bring to people who may prefer their content in audio-video rather than in typed form.
I don’t know. This is just me thinking out loud, as I often do here. It’s just in my nature.
More to come, as always.