In my effort to document the ever abandoned appearance to this site, I’m deciding to take this evening to post at least something here to show that I am, indeed, still checking in on things.
I find myself hyper focused on YouTube as my creative outlet, recently — primarily on the anti-creationist comedic reaction side of things in which I’ve carved out a nice niche for myself. I’ve certainly been having fun and have a nice little community of regulars which don’t just watch for the types of content I react to, but also for me and my often seemingly random stories and side tangents. Naturally, it’s incredibly nice to have been found by people who, for once, actually appreciate me being myself unlike so many others I’ve encountered through the years.
That’s meant that I’ve had very little creative time and energy left for Xadara, which kind of sucks. I really should be, honestly, taking breaks from livestreams and videos and instead focusing more on putting thought into word here, but, to be completely honest, with the workflow I’ve developed for myself video wise, it’s easier to make videos now than it is to write something.
That, however, is due to the intentional off the cuff and reactionary nature of the vast majority of my current video work. My written work I take a bit more pride in and while it too is often off the cuff, it’s more varied and, regardless of the subject, I take it a bit more seriously than I may a live stream reaction to some reality denying clown online, so, I find myself putting more energy into an article as I write it than I may a live stream as it happens.
Indeed, I’m surprisingly relaxed while streaming — no longer nervous at all, and not that self conscious about all of my quirks in speaking and thinking — I’ve learned how to just roll with it, and my audience actually seems to appreciate how genuine I am about things. Again, a rare treat to have encountered people who actually can appreciate that about someone.
As for Xadara, though, I’ve had a bunch I should have written about but I’ve simply put it off. I may try to get back to those topics this week, but I don’t know if that will happen. That’s the goal at least.
I really should also write some companion pieces to videos I’ve done, or subjects I’ve covered. That, and more stupid stuff — long overdue on more AVGN episode reviews, and maybe other media. Truly, the spirit is there, but I only have so much energy in the day to devote to creative projects. Blame work, among other things.
Yeah, that’s about that. More to come, as always.